Hey i get to join the people posting bulletins mainly because i don't post many. But i really don't know what to do anymore. I need help from somewhere. Maybe the people that are my friends on here can tell me. yeah i know Myspace is the shittiest way of doing this but most of you i cant talk to on anywhere near a regular basis. Well the things i need help with are as follows, I need help on how to like block out everything work ever says. I dislike pretty much everyone in my section. I love my job just not the people i work with. Normal. I'm trying my best not to like explode at all the stupid shit they say. Its like yeah i know military flight line and backshop you get picked on yeah get that. Just like constantly badgering me about Mary is getting on my nerves. I already think of her all the dang time. And all work ever has to say is so you had sex with her yet. Daily i say No and like there corrupting me. As some of you know i become who im around. I steal Emotions, and other things. I don't like it. Im worried i may become just another person that just wants to have sex with every girl i met. Yeah thats society today. i don't want that. Yeah it maybe its because im a virgin and haven't experienced it and i still think this. But i just want someone to care for and to hold. Theres a person that i do care for right now. Most of the people on here have heard of her from me atleast once. Some are probably sick of hearing about her. But its like I would love to be with her. I like her and care about her. But like it seems like she faids away during the week then on the week end it like i may gain back a step. And for a while now ive been scared about loseing her to another. Still More normal stuff. But its like when another guy likes the girl you like and all that kinda kills me. Yeah i know ive never really taken her out on a date and all that. But i dont really know how that works. Yeah we hang out and everything but i don't know. That guy it like new into the picture and like it just tweeks me. It sucks because she knows i like her and i know she likes me, but she hasn't let her old b/f fade. I wish there was something i could do to help her or something. Yeah selfish to want to her get over him just so i can have her. Its true that ive tried my hardest to let her go just so i can stop wanting to be with her so bad. But i can't do it she means way to much to me. Shes read a note i was writing myself just to let it all out without hindering other people with my ranting, but she found it and read it. We talked a little about it and everything but nothing else. I still wonder everything i put in the note. Is all this normal for everyone. I just don;t know. And i know doing this just is pushing her further away from me. What should i do. Someone tell me? Someone help me? I don't know what to do.